I'm Not Going There To Die. I'm Going There To Find Out If I'm Really Alive. (DEMO)

by Black Squirrel, Run!

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m22 Perfect. I feel the music. Favorite track: Han Solo (Shot First) - DEMO.

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This tape is in memory of and in honor of Taylor Stahlman.
$2 (and any other excess amount paid) from every tape purchase will be donated to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (suicidepreventionlifeline.org)

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1.	Han Solo (Shot First) - DEMO 03:07		buy track
2.	Haiku #4 - DEMO 04:21	lyrics	buy track
(Ancient haikus translated from Japanese to English) April's air is in Willow-leaves...a butterfly Floats and balances In the city fields Contemplating cherry-trees... Strangers are like friends Dead my old fine hopes And dry my dreaming but still... Iris, blue each spring I WAS SO NAIVE I WAS SO NAIVE I WAS SO NAIVE April's air is in Willow-leaves...a butterfly Floats and balances In the city fields Contemplating cherry-trees... Strangers are like friends Dead my old fine hopes And dry my dreaming but still... Iris, blue each spring I was so naive I really was so naive I was so naive I WAS SO NAIVE (SCREAM) I WAS SO NAIVE I WAS SO NAIVE
3.	Garden Of Eden - DEMO 03:04	lyrics	buy track
We're In the Garden Of Eden Where All the Plants Do all the Feeding I Am the Dirt, I am the Sun, I am The Water For Everyone We're In the Garden Of Eden Where All the Plants Do all the Feeding I Am the Dirt, I am the Sun, I am The Water For Everyone We're In the Garden Of Eden Where All the Plants Do all the Feeding I Am the Dirt, I am the Sun, I am The Water For Everyone We're In the Garden Of Eden Where All the Plants Do all the Feeding I am A Plant; I am a god soo... FUCK EVERYONE
4.	Taylor's Song - DEMO 03:53	lyrics	buy track
The word on the the street says you're doing real fine I heard this morning from a friend I think that's great I think that's swell But there's a shit eating grin plastered on your face The sad thing is it's been since day one I heard somethings about your lies and I've seen things with my own two eyes well that's alright I'll be okay but there's a hole in my chest where my heart use to be and I think I'm sinking down
5.	Relapse - DEMO 04:53		buy track

about

We promise we are going to re-do everything in this very soon.
For now we give you the rough versions.
Available digitally and on cassette tapes from Missed Out Records!

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John Charles Stahlman - Bass, Lyrics, Concepts, and Vocals.
Shawn "Bazooka" Harkless - Guitars, Ambience, Lyrics, and Vocals.
Jason "Pappa K" Kachik - Drums, Vocals, and Drinking All The Beer
Jon Krieble - Guitars, Sick Solos, and Backing Vocals

The sample in Haiku #4 is from the final scene of the anime Cowboy Bebop.

(Please dont sue us lol)

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Produced by : Black Squirrel, Run! and The Half-Story Collective

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Recorded From : Late September - Mid-October 2018
Recorded By : Members of Black Squirrel, Run! and The Half-Story Collective in Jon's old apartment living room

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Thank You :

Gennese Ice (for moral support)
Steven Bradley (for driving the driveless)
Julian Shoaf (for sacrificing his drum heads for this EP)

Bazooka (for driving when Steve couldn't)

Doug / Missed Out Records (for making tapes for this release)

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released December 25, 2018

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